Kitten Lights out Wrapped in my arms Yeah, I like your rainy sound Yeah, I like the way you bounce back from everything
We were sitting It was pouring So we played a game Of mousetrap and I lost And you said you felt the same That I needn’t ever worry About winning or the ways Of people that live to do it ‘Cause they just lose in other ways And we listened to the thunder And thought about a god That never probably would play mousetrap Unless there was mystery to cause And a hate around it
Death is A blanket Sometimes you fold it Yeah, I like your rainy sound Yeah, I like the way you bounce back from everything
Yeah, I like your rainy sound Yeah, I like your rainy sound Yeah, I like your rainy sound Yeah, I like your rainy sound Yeah, I like your rainy sound
[Verse] I was a man alone Leaning on the white courtesy phone Holy fools and hobo signs I rebuke in moony lines
I drove into the sun Yeah I was the dirt and when the wheels spun Wanting to escape myself Leave the gun upon the shelf
[Bridge] Stroll through, ‘scuse me but I thought I knew you Smiling like a check is due Feeling pleasure that you’re bound to lose
[Chorus] Wait! Oh, you’ll find a better way Oh, you’ll find a better way Oh, you’ll find a better way Wait! Oh, you’ll find a better way (Oh yes I’m free to face all the darkness on my own Free to face the darkness on my own) Oh, you’ll find a better way (Oh yes I’m free to face all the darkness on my own) Oh, you’ll find a better way (Free to face the darkness on my own
[Verse – live versions only] You were a holy mess You were dressed in infinite forgiveness But you were the heaviest Cat in the crowd nonetheless
[Verse] You were a wretched wave All the sullen trolls that you swam out to save All the moves and all your mind Dust swirls in the sunlight
[Bridge] All things empty and amazing Jot ’em down upon the wall Dressed like a professional
[Chorus] Wait! Oh, you’ll find a better way Oh, you’ll find a better way Oh, you’ll find a better way Wait! Oh, you’ll find a better way (Oh yes I’m free to face all the darkness on my own Free to face the darkness on my own) Oh, you’ll find a better way (Oh yes I’m free to face all the darkness on my own) Oh, you’ll find a better way (Free to face the darkness on my own
Then I’m free to face all the darkness on my own Free to face the darkness on my own Oh yes I’m free to face all the darkness on my own Free to face the darkness on my own Oh yes I’m free to face all the darkness on my own Yes I’m free to face the darkness on my own
I was in many minds I was in an airport bookstore I wait for many moons Left a suitcase on the fourth floor Enormous balloons Gold chocker all made out of spoons Eatin’ super sugar crisp I was getting used to this WellLight will keep your heart beating in the future Light will keep your heart beating in the future Keep your heart beating in the – Keep your heart, keep your heart beating Keep your heart beating, beating Keep your heart beating in the, beating in the Keep your heart, keep your heart beating Keep your heart beating, beating Keep your heart beating in the, beating in theThere was a lot of them Ther was a bloody fight next door The was a crack stem There was a ghoul on the misty moor City bus Ketamine Lucy Lawless Magazine Out of base Lucky charm Outer space Smoke alarmLight will keep your heart beating in the future Light will keep your heart beating in the future Keep your heart beating in the – Keep your heart, keep your heart beating Keep your heart beating, beating Keep your heart beating in the, beating in the Keep your heart, keep your heart beating Keep your heart beating, beating Keep your heart beating in the, beating in theOverlap Overleaf Shoulder strap Fire chief Porch swing Moneyless Purple wine Freckle face Heavy hand Closed door Contraband North shore Fine line Margarine Ridin’ line Mandarin
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The boy never fell as he ran across the plain And home to winter She flew beside him an angel of despair
And won’t somebody tell him why the stars refuse to shine There’s laughter in the dark And I can’t sleep at night
And why must the night last til the day Which never comes again
The mountain’s drawing closer The dawn is close behind The boy runs on his legs don’t falter now The cold winds drive him on But look you careful now For all is withered where he runs
And won’t somebody tell him why the stars refuse to shine There’s laughter in the dark And I can’t sleep at night
And why must the night last til the day Which never comes again
A tunnel there beneath the mountain The boy runs on his stride never slowing The angel cannot follow She turns her back and flies away He runs through streets of ice now And ever shall til spring returns
And won’t somebody tell him why the stars refuse to shine There’s laughter in the dark And I can’t sleep at night
And why must the night last til the day Which never comes again
Little fish, boat’s too full, down you go Breathing in salt and fuel, tiny gulps Statistically it’s commonplace, you’re not alone So end like this instead of shot back at home The world is a strange place Quiet like bullets in a briefcase Why do I feel like I’m in the wrong place? Quiet like bullets in a briefcase Quiet like bullets in a briefcase Little man, Northern France, winter’s cold 800 hours, 4, 000 miles, feet alone No one I know would even dare it, let alone Shanty town bleeding out in the shadows The world is a strange place Quiet like bullets in a briefcase Why do I feel like I’m in the wrong place? Quiet like bullets in a briefcase Quiet like bullets in a briefcase
A year ago I noticed an old black cat was hanging around. It looked thin. Starved. I suspected it’d been abandoned.
I gave it a bowl of food, and the desperation with which it ate struck a chord with me. It took three full cereal bowls before it finally walked away. I resolved to feed it. One additional cat would hardly break the bank.
It took months before it stopped forcing down absolutely every scrap it was offered. Months before it started looking a bit less gaunt. It did improve though, and the frequency with which we saw it convinced me it really didn’t have a home.
We set up a few insulated pet houses outside, to keep the wind and rain off. Old black was joined by old grey, and the two of them would spend hours sleeping on the furniture outside, or wandering the yard. Old black would come over anytime I came outside and loudly demand attention, usually in the form of scratches. Needle sharp claws presented if he was ignored for too long.
A few days ago I noticed old black wasn’t coming by for food. He was spending a lot of time sleeping, but I didn’t see him eating anything. Yesterday I didn’t see him at all — and that was weird, since this was essentially home base.
This morning I found him. Half out of one of the houses, and face down. Gone.
It’s obviously been a few hours, he’s cold. I’ve wrapped him in a soft towel, and again in plastic, and in a few hours I’ll take him to the vet for cremation.
It’s not the least I could do, but it is all I can offer. One final bit of dignity.
I appreciate the chance I’ve had to be a part of your lives. To peer in from the outside, to occasionally be invited in. To bear witness to your great moments.. and the ones that weren’t really so great after all.
I’m bad at socializing, and even worse at keeping in touch. That said, I value the moments we’ve shared, as friends, as acquaintances, as colleagues, and sometimes as opponents.
I firmly believe you’re all worth knowing (or you wouldn’t still be on my friends list). I believe I’m lucky to have met you. I hope the next time our paths cross, you’ll remember me fondly, or even just a little.
Thank you.
Now, that said, I had a friend ask if I had a terminal illness (or was otherwise abandoning facebook). I realized at that point that yeah, it looks like that, as people don’t tend to say the things they feel most strongly until they’re almost out of time.
That’s not the case here, and I feel better for saying it now instead of waiting until that moment.